still "..."

too many thoughts crossing my mind and no words to describe them

how could I help anybody if I can't even help myself

I have the feeling that all is changing or about to change. And I know that after the 2nd of July nothing is going to be the same again. I didn't need him to remind me that.

I know what I should be doing, I just can't do it.

Waiting for someone to care, waiting for something to happen. And it is happening. Everything is getting worse by each day.

to be continued...[published it because I'm bored of leaving dead drafts lying around on this site]